At the beginning of 2018, I started my journey to recovery. Before that, it was many failed attempts at sobriety. Hospitals, inpatients, therapy, uncomfortable places. I had this idea that when becoming sober, I would be “normal” again. That years of damage, trauma, and mental illness would disappear along with my drug use. Within multiple years, I think the cleanest time I was able to achieve was around 5 days.